Lifelines

I don’t own this life, this is not mine. Many people I loved suddenly come into my life and suddenly gone or suddenly don’t want me in their life anymore, sadly everytime I have to proved myself that I’m strong enough to face it. But at the end, I feel life is playing me and I have to follow its game for a lifetime. I didn’t ask many but I think I don’t deserve to get those less wishes either. I...

Mysterious Ways

I do not know what’s wrong with me, I’ve seen many people who cheating their spouse but acting like a prophet, talking about good things that people should do but they don’t, stingy people but always shows up what their own, act like helping people but they have their own purpose to do that and sadly they all got what they want, what their intend to. While I know myself, more than half of my journey was help...

Complicated Heart

I still can’t understand, how can I fall into deep with something that against my life rules .. things I should avoid for good, things that surely won’t make my life easier, things that I can’t discuss and talk about, things that I’m not sure where and when it will end. As I know, Karma still watching me around the corner and I took many efforts to dealt with it, I should make my life simpler than...

For Pride

In Internet world, I feel like Oracle on The Matrix movie, feel like a mother watching her children growing up, as she knows them since they’re born, she understand each characteristic, she knows how they’re struggling  what they’re doing and then some kids getting rich and some doesn’t. The rich kids separated to the ones who still aware from where they belongs and the ones who feel they are higher...

The Magic – Day 3

This is my mom, 60 y.o, without her I’m nothing. She taking care of me everyday, although I should not to be pampered by her again, and take care of her instead. Our relationship so great in the latest years, she can understand what I want and what I need and trying to not judge anything about my decision, she respect me and my capability as single parent .. what a great honor, should make more time with...

Nothing

Do you ever feel that you just nothing after everything you did for people ? I found for myself lately, I tried to not think about it but it always bare in mind. No, I’m not asking about my rights, I just need what I’m deserve to have, everybody deserve what they wish for. I know when I helped people and shared everything I know to them there’s no intention behind all those things, but at the end it will...